I guess today’s not the day to concentrate.  I guess today is the day to think about my personal life, and think about my directions.  It’s also the day I feel way too upset to eat a meal, as well as the day where I can drive home looking straight ahead without even realizing I haven’t moved a muscle except for the ones required to drive.  Today may be the day I go running and actually run A LOT, forget about the distance or time I’ve covered running, just listen to music and not think about ANYTHING, or may be something.   Today is ALSO the day when I officially kick people out of my life, people who’ve made me feel like shit and took my heart and tried to bend it in half (no te preocupes no eres tu wei).  And know that I wouldn’t be scared to yell out your mediocre names… Today is the day I can ALSO say that you’ll never get to be where I am.. Its taken work, and you ain’t nothing.  Everything just came down on me Today… Starting with one thing, and leading to another… But today is the day I try to stay strong, I guess I’m used to it.. Today is the day where I welcome anyone who wants to be with/for me, and flip the middle finger, and follow it with my index and say peace out to those who can’t.  Today, leaves are falling off the tree… Changes…

I heard this said recently, and I MIGHT just have something to say about that. I’ve heard this several times in the past, and never really thought of it the way I think of it now. I’ve gone through situations where I’ve felt pretty much like this, with girls not appreciating the things that I do for them, as well as them not giving a DAMN about my feelings or the full spectrum of human emotion. I’ve only had 2 official girlfriends and only ONCE has one of them been a complete disaster to me. The girls I’ve dated, well… some were a disaster before I even ASKED them to be my gf’s, so thank grilled cheesus I did not label them with the SUCH meaningful word as girlfriend (others I was lucky to have them in my life).

Now I’m going to keep this post short, and in the next paragraph I’m going to answer this question, and I’m going to answer very clear and upfront [if you get offended well… get off my blog, but this really couldn’t hurt a bunny so relax!!].

So what is it about nice guys that brings the bitch in…. ladies?

PUSSIES!!!! THAT’S what brings out the bitch in ladies, gentlemen. Let me tell you something. Its totally okay to fall for a girl, its totally okay to feel special feelings for this particular lady who sooner or later, or may never, take a huge part of your life. It’s okay to want to cuddle and snuggle with them for very long hours of the night because you really feel a connection with them. But as long as you’re with them (and this really applies to both men and women dating someone of the opposite OR the same sex), you GOTTA look out for yourself more than you do for them. Yes, men, they are ladies and need our shelter and our love as WE need theirs, but realize they are also women… so man up and let them have their space. Men dating other men, the other is, well… a MEN, don’t hang up your balls in a string for them and think they’re always going to be there because your a nice boyfriend.. men up! Ladies dating ladies… same goes for you! Be tough, for yourself and for others, defend yourself! And from the girls’ perspective… Be a good girlfriend… TO A POINT! Stand up for yourself, for what you believe in, because there is NOTHING more attractive and sexy than a woman who truly believes in herself and in her place in this life.

Unfortunately, I haven’t had a relationship where I’ve learned what love is, I’m sure I will some day. Or I don’t know, I may not… But I can really say that a relationship can be such a great thing because of what I’ve seen, because of the examples that are presented to me by life. Perfect example, my parents… 2 days ago, was their 25th anniversary, and their love is stronger than ever. One, because they’ve looked out for each other, expressed their love and created lives for both me and my sister. Two, because they’ve ALSO looked out for themselves.

To close this, and to relate to the title of this blog… For all my brothas out there.. whether you’re dating a woman or another man… MAN THE FCUK UP! Belive in your relationship as much as you believe in yourself, don’t you dare come crying down one day because the lady you were dating… was a bitch to the “nice guy” (eyeroll) that you are, because THAT same nice guy that you are.. made her the “bitch” that you think she is….

That is all. Good night lovers and friends.